Which brings me to my next point. I finally got some proper air on Monday! Went wakeboarding with the usual loud-mouthed Clare and another girl called Adrianne. Clare told me Adrianne had to go for 4 lessons before she even learnt to get up on the board. But far from thinking she's lousy at this, I really respected her determination and perseverance to do what she set out on doing. Most people stop trying if they fail to get up even on the first lesson. So in a way, Adrianne was an inspiration for me that I can achieve what I set out to do if I really wanted it. That lesson I consistently tried my wakejumps. Still falling here and there, and height was still pitiful, but my landings were getting there. This time I went for 3 sets instead of my usual 2, and by the time the last set was done, I was landing my small jumps pretty well, but still wasn't getting much height.
And so I decided to give it one last go, and signalled to Clare that I wanted to try again. She gave me an evil stare and told me she wants to eat, but I know she will still let me have my last set haha. This time, I decided to follow my motto of 'fuck it and huck it', and went in all guns blazing. This usually ends with a spectacular crash, but this time, I felt myself pop clean off the wake, I heard cheering from the girls, and BAM. I landed it clean. The feeling was awesome! Tried again and once again, another good jump and clean landing. By this time I saw Adrianne taking out her camera, so I went at it again and.... landed flat on my face. Nooooooo, the only video that Adrianne took and I didnt pull it off. But still, I really felt a sense of accomplishment that day. I would have wanted to go again, but I think Clare would strangle me with the rope and leave me to die in the sea. So we packed up and headed to dinner together. Overall though, it was another awesome day! This pursuit of progression, as Danny Harf says it, is what keeps me going.
Anyways, dinner with a friend's sister that day, and she just randomly mentioned me and the girl, we look like we made a really good couple. I tried not to think too much into it, but it still put a smile on my face all the same. Sam gave me the death stare but I persisted. Let me be happy for a while la! Joycelyn did mention it before too, that I do look at her in 'that way', and she feels we seem good together, it's just that she never brought it up to me. Everytime people say stuff like these to me, I guess I have to admit I get a little hopeful. But still, I don't think anything will or should ever happen between us. It's just a feeling I will hide inside and hope will fade in time to come.
Something like that happened after my breakup with Jasmine too. Jas and I brought Pika to the vet because he had an eye infection, and while smoking outside while waiting for Jas, I struck up a conversation with this lawyer who was waiting for his pet too. I mentioned in our conversation that Jas was my friend, and he asked me if she was my girlfriend. I told him no, and that we once were a couple but are just friends now. He said it was a shame, that we looked good together, and he could see that I cared a lot for her. He insisted that he could convince her that we make a good couple (lawyers, really!), but I told him I am happy just being friends. On his way in, he told Jasmine, " Your boyfriend is waiting outside." Jasmine maintained that I was not her boyfriend, but he said, " I think he is, so he is. You guys really look like a good couple." Haha. He's a strange person, but what he said still made me a little happy inside.
Sometimes I wonder why I always end up loving someone I shouldn't. Oh well, maybe one day, another 'girl of my dreams' (who is SINGLE) will saunter into my life, sweep me off my feet and we will live happily ever after. Sam is gonna smack me in the head for being idealistic if he reads this, but still, I believe it will happen one day. For now, it's time to jog! I wanna get fitter faster!
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