I still can't get over how much I'm missing you. I realized how quiet my life is without you. I missed how you can just ramble on and on about anything and everything and annoy the crap out of me, but everytime I give you the annoyed look, there's always a hint of a smile behind it. How you used to bring so much life to my house, making my folks laugh, sometimes making me cringe at the silly things you say. How you used to wake me up at 3am, tell me you were too hyper to sleep, jumping on the bed, poking me, tickling me to wake me up and talk to you. I missed our little trips to the supermarket, where we will end up overspending on tidbits and food, and finish half of them within a day. I miss your cheeriness, your smile, your laugh, your pouts, your energy. I missed how under all that attitude you place in front of you, you had a really good, caring heart for those around you. How you will always annoy me by asking me to buy food and drinks for my friends before we meet. How you will always ask my parents if they need us to buy anything home, even though I really didn't want to. How you will always want me to call my parents to show concern for them. How you always dragged me along to feed stray dogs.
I miss you so much.
I remembered telling you I loved to see you happy, telling you if one day I cannot be the one to make you smile like you should, if one day I cannot bring you the happiness you deserve anymore, to leave me because all I want is for you to be happy.
The day has come, but I have never imagined it would be so, so hard to let you go.
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